What you think, so you become

I am not my body; I am not my mind. Yet, I am so confined in my body and thoughts that I never chose to see beyond that. My physique, my features, those eyes, these flabs, never could I get over this.

Once in a while, I chose to see in the mirror - naked, raw and beautiful. There’s this thing about mirror, it shows you what you chose to see. The times I saw powerless, incompetent, not so beautiful me, that’s what it made me feel. The times I saw the power packed, confident, graceful me, that’s what I felt, every single moment – whether someone told me or not, I - this tiny human felt there’s this phenomenal power and love within me.

What you think, so you become. What you feel, so you believe. Life has always been this – yet, often, we are our own enemies. We believe that we’re a little less than others and so we become. We believe that this is a far-fetched dream and so it remains.

Life transforms from the moment when every cell of your body screeches out to you that you have infinite potential, you are meant to touch all that you aspire to touch. Like a magic, you touch. It all starts with once single confident loving thought.

There’s so much beauty in me, yet I kept comparing with ones around me or the ones I see in the big screen! It’s like comparing the Golden Temple and the Taj Mahal – there’s a different beauty to both – if only we chose to accept what that is – is.

It has taken me close to 30 years to accept me the way I am – not just accept – love myself for what I am and appreciate the beauty within me. And I am glad it happened, for every realization comes with its bounties and miracles.

For me it has given me the power to see beyond the limited me, my limited thoughts – how could I have been so confined, so trapped that my life is meant to be full of struggles. Struggle? Is that so? My lord from above would definitely ask me. Was my Krishna avatar a struggle? Was my Rama avatar a struggle? Was Hanumana struggling? Or is Ratan Tata struggling?

Then was that a struggle or a challenge? Challenges that each of us are going to face based on where we stand and the changes we aspire to bring in – in ourselves and in society.

I am not my body; I am not my mind. I am this pure instrument of Lord that will do all that HE makes me do – with love, with care, with peace, with happiness, with contentment yet with aspiration that there is more to me that is yet to be explored.

I often feel it this way –

Life, Oh! Life,

You wanted so much from me,

Yet so little did I think of myself…

Life, Oh! Life,

I leave myself to you,

For you know it better,

What I can become…