Life through the lens of someone who lost their close one/s

I am aware, it’s not just us going through this phase, yet, the transition seems like an eternity, the hollowness aches you, life shifts from casual flow to something deeper and beyond.

It’s close to 2 months, that I lost my father-in-law, my husband and sister-in-law lost their father, my mother-in-law – her husband. Yet the despair is palpable. The void still remains, as a family, it seems like we’re uprooted, now, aiming to create our own roots and stand tall.

The house seems empty, our souls lost, withering us completely. Yet, I am observing, that we have moved beyond the realms of superficial lives that we’ve lived. It doesn’t really matter what people are thinking about us, the outings, amateur judgmental conversations. We all are trying to seek peace in our own ways, through work, through holy books, by being there for each other, through life itself.

For some reason, I’ve started questioning life itself – Why do we live? What do we leave? The status for which people spend their entire lives, doing things they’ve never wanted to do, does it remain? Money – yes, we need it as long as we’re alive, we need to survive, thrive, aim for more – but is that it?

I wonder, why do we fail to listen to our calling, more often, fail to run behind it and grab it? Isn’t it the universe saying in some way, you’re meant for it? Why do we lose out on our peace, laughter and fulfillment for petty issues? Why do we miss out on deep love? Why do we miss out on moments beyond comprehension, that would never come back, just because in the back of our minds – the reel of life keeps playing.

Why do we not pause and listen to life, to universe and do what must be done with all our heart, feel it and then take a step ahead with utmost faith. Staying conscious and aware that all that is yet to unfold will be for our best and keep pouring our 100%.

Why aren’t we conscious that breath by breath our life is passing by? That the beautiful life we’re gifted with is not just for ego fulfilment, it’s for the wellness of others too. Our tiny judgements are not making an inch of difference in anyone’s life. There’s so much to give, and yet, we lose out on giving countless of times.

Our heart needs to be open, our soul divinely pure, our love ceaseless, our judgements non-existent. It isn’t easy to fathom life, we aren’t expected to. But living – yes, we’re expected to live fully and deeply and get utmost from our lives through our thoughts, deeds and actions.

Life isn’t as serious and complicated as it seems to be, it’s how you take it – the lighter you are, you keep flowing. The heavier we are - within, the stagnant we would be.

Living to love,

Loving to live…